Just write and leave the rest to me

Truth is, I haven't written in a long while. 

Yes, I have written in the past months but I have not been actively posting anywhere (not on this site or on Facebook as well). 

You see, like I always say, Sharing Life started not because I wanted to necessarily start a blog but because of this unshakable knowing that Holy Spirit was leading me in the direction of starting a blog. So, Sharing Life has been, as described, a blog which highlights lessons received from my daily walk with Holy Spirit.

I have been quiet for a while and this is mostly because at some point, I lost focus on what this really is about. 

This is a blog about my life's experiences. This explains why most of my posts are of a personal nature. I believe that we are all graced for our respective callings and that is why I am able to do what I do and find fulfillment in it. 

Somewhere along the line, I started Sharing Life videos and I was told by well-meaning friends on the need to make more Scriptural references in my videos. Take my word for it, there is nothing wrong with such a statement. But the thing is, by the Grace of God, Holy Spirit takes me on journeys where certain pieces of Scripture come alive to me and make so much sense in whichever season I may discover them. 

To some extent, I felt like I wasn't good enough. My plan wasn't to be a preacher or to be an authority in spiritual things. I only wanted to share my journey at every stage of the way, as Holy Spirit would have me do. 

Then I got scared. I wondered whether that was what others thought about my writings and my other output. I wondered if people thought I wasn't preaching Christ enough. I had another well-meaning friend tell me to preach Christ crucified more. I asked myself, "Will I be able to defend what I am putting out there?" You see, this question came up because I was listening to what others were saying and now trying to factor their opinions in my output. But growth in Christ is organic; He leads us along this growth process and it is according to His pace.  Now I was stuck. Stuck because even though I was producing, some aspects of what I was producing wasn't entirely real to me because I had not yet come to the fullness of what those words or sayings meant. 

Now here I am, trying to start again and asking myself whether I can do this or defend myself and I find the Lord whispering into my heart, "Just write and leave the rest to me".

It has taken a lot for me to get here. 

Along this journey, a lot has happened which I am so eager to share.

Indeed, I have a lot to write about and I cannot wait to share it all with you. 

Above all, I want to say how sorry I am for exalting the concerns of others for me above the Lord's voice.

I am sorry for not remaining grounded in the Lord's calling over me. 

I am sorry for not believing in myself enough. 

Most importantly, I am sorry for not trusting Jesus enough.

Oh what blessed assurance, that the Love and Mercy of Our Father runs deeply down every brokenness of mine.

Such love and mercy does nothing but bring wholeness and His Shalom my way.

Thank You Jesus. 

Till the next post, this is love from me, 

Sharing Life.