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Love?

I have seen and experienced so much of what love isn't and how it ought not to be.
So much so, that I am scared I no longer have the courage to embrace what it should be or what it really is.

A man i admire told me that he loved me... yesterday, he told me.
I guess I am 'too caked' to give it a thought.

My heart was beating fast... out of fear.
I am tired of going through these motions all over again.

Lord, help me embrace Your love.
Please give me the courage to see Your hand at work in my heart.
Help me embrace love when it comes my way.
Teach me how to be vulnerable... again.
Please teach me how to let go of the reins and silently rest in the knowledge that You Are in charge.

I need You.
Please, help me.

...waiting on YOu...

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