Faithfullness in the little things

I was going to embark on a 21-day fast, starting yesterday (05/04/17).

I felt that I was in need of a deep sensitivity to the happenings in the spirit realm.

I wanted to engage my heavenly portals.

I was all fired-up!

I went to one of my favourite book sellers to purchase a book… I ended up buying four new books!

Oooh! I was preparing so well.

Upon reading one of the books, I cried as I prayed to Daddy. I was telling Him of how much I needed Him and what I was willing to forfeit for it. 

Mehhnnn! I was willing to forfeit the big things for Him… really.

In one of the books I purchased, Ps. Benny Hinn was talking about the fact that the anointing requires constant communion with Our Lord, Jesus Christ, and how that form of fellowship would require a lot of sacrifices… including a simple thing as forfeiting a lunch date with relatives (as was his case).

So I told Daddy, that I didn’t mind losing the one I deeply love for His sake… including my desire for a family and babies of my own.

That is major, don’t you think?

But, somewhere along those very very very few moments after I said those words, it was as though Holy Spirit had just opened me up to a reality I had blinded my own eyes from.

Mary Magdalene… you do not have time for Me.

Honestly, you value sleep more than you value me. So much so, that you wake up at any time, and it almost always is as though you are in a rush!

You want the big things and you are willing to make the big sacrifices.

But, what about those little things like your time and your obedience?

You hardly gimme those, you know?

I am not shocked about this revelation.

I am glad.

At the same time, I am asking myself, “why haven’t you been intentional about your growth, Magdalene?”

Honestly, I have never been regular in my walk with Dad.

Do I wake up, deliberately to seek His face in the mornings?

Is Papa the reason why I wake up?

Is fellowship the reason why I wake up?

All my life, I have had no purpose for waking up… I just do.

The Word of God tells us that if we are faithful in the little things, the Lord will bless us with greater things, for the sake of our faithfulness.

How do I do the mega, when I am unable to do the mini?

So now, what must I do…

The question I must ask myself now is, “Are you willing to pay the price of forfeiting your sleep?”

Holy Spirit, I need Your help.

Father, I receive Your Grace, to obey.

I sincerely do.