I was going
to embark on a 21-day fast, starting yesterday (05/04/17).
I felt that
I was in need of a deep sensitivity to the happenings in the spirit realm.
I wanted to
engage my heavenly portals.
I was all
fired-up!
I went to
one of my favourite book sellers to purchase a book… I ended up buying four new
books!
Oooh! I was
preparing so well.
Upon reading
one of the books, I cried as I prayed to Daddy. I was telling Him of how much I
needed Him and what I was willing to forfeit for it.
Mehhnnn! I was willing to
forfeit the big things for Him… really.
In one of
the books I purchased, Ps. Benny Hinn was talking about the fact that the
anointing requires constant communion with Our Lord, Jesus Christ, and how that
form of fellowship would require a lot of sacrifices… including a simple thing
as forfeiting a lunch date with relatives (as was his case).
So I told
Daddy, that I didn’t mind losing the one I deeply love for His sake… including
my desire for a family and babies of my own.
That is
major, don’t you think?
But,
somewhere along those very very very few moments after I said those words, it
was as though Holy Spirit had just opened me up to a reality I had blinded my
own eyes from.
Mary Magdalene… you do not have time
for Me.
Honestly, you value sleep more than
you value me. So much so, that you wake up at any time, and it almost always is
as though you are in a rush!
You want the big things and you are
willing to make the big sacrifices.
But, what about those little things
like your time and your obedience?
You hardly gimme those, you know?
I am not
shocked about this revelation.
I am glad.
At the same
time, I am asking myself, “why haven’t you been intentional about your growth,
Magdalene?”
Honestly, I
have never been regular in my walk with Dad.
Do I wake
up, deliberately to seek His face in the mornings?
Is Papa the
reason why I wake up?
Is
fellowship the reason why I wake up?
All my life, I have had
no purpose for waking up… I just do.
The Word of
God tells us that if we are faithful in the little things, the Lord will bless
us with greater things, for the sake of our faithfulness.
How do I do
the mega, when I am unable to do the mini?
So now, what
must I do…
The question
I must ask myself now is, “Are you willing to pay the price of forfeiting your
sleep?”
Holy Spirit,
I need Your help.
Father, I
receive Your Grace, to obey.
I sincerely do.
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